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Belly of the Beast
02:29
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I sat down in the belly of the beast and I cried
All I need is someone to save me from myself, be on my side
While she haunts all the places we used to go I am a child
When there’s no choice but to forget and to avoid where she runs wild
Now it’s been awhile with no end in sight
As I walk on from the dark edge of this cell my head held low
I try to remember words a friend of mine had left about a glow
That spark’s not faded and the words still hold their depth through all this time
Still I would trade them all for one more late night drive with him
Then I might just be all right, we could drive all night before I close my eyes
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Before I Let You Down
05:28
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You would never guess that when it all goes down
It won’t be so affirming as heart-rending
Even though you let him be your one way out
I will help you just before I let you down
Seven months down to the hour
The difference is it’s all the same
And now I hear you’ve been out walking
Like I was when you left me cryin in the street
But honey I rose up and sang my way back home
And that’s the part you missed, the heartbreak you never saw
Now I’m done with it
And you can have it
I’ve had all I’d ever want
If the dark that fuels this is what you’re looking for
Then darlin take it, it’s all yours
Overblown and overdriven
Trying hard just to be seen
Breaking out from who you were
And who they told you you should be
But I never told you that or which way you should go
If you’re crashing now I still want you to know
That I’m done with it
And you can have it
I’ve had all I’d ever want
If the dark that fuels this is what you’re looking for
Then darlin take it, it’s all yours
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What You Believe
04:09
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Picked out and wasted
And falling from grace in these walls
No home again
It all happened so fast
The only feeling that lasts
Is the sinking so deep in a song
But hold on
Darlin, the thing is
The feeling was fleeting
But for you I’m just not so sure
If I knew you at all
The weight of the fall
Will be more than you can endure
Or are you stronger
Are you bolder
Now that you’re gone
Hold on
Now that some time’s passed
I hope those dreams are coming less and less
And you barely remember my face
And even if you still think I’m untrue
You can forget and stop wasting your days
I know you’re stronger
I know you’re bolder
Now that I’m gone
Now that I’m gone
The truth’s what you believe
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4. |
Gray and Gold
03:34
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Cold nights slipping from my mind
One eye can’t pretend that you’re not gone
While the other stays blind
Stands the test of time
Thinks we’ll make some songs again
I fold my hands over my chest
And breathe a final sigh of my demise
After having fallen down
Still reeling from the sound
Of your pure, imperfect breath
Of what’s gray and and what’s gold
That could swallow me whole
There’s a shadow that dwells
When this city can tell
That you’ll be beyond recognition pretty soon
Let these words be some relief
A temporary reprieve from the fear
Of falling or growing up
Or not doing enough to realize the dream again
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Don't Leave Me Here
03:46
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I’ll buy another round
If you don’t leave me here just yet
I still need you to help me to forget
I’m not the lucky one no more
I know you’ve got your kid
And your wife asleep at home
But I don’t wanna be alone
Let’s just be younger men again
Dear brother I’m worried I have a soul
Less passionate than yours and the whole damned world’s
I don’t mean to burden you with all of my insecurity
But you oughta know me by now
This is one of several nights
I’ve wandered out my door
Tryin to find out what I’m for
In a bottle like they’ve sung
I must be doing something wrong
Because it’s nothing like those songs
Yeah I’m drinking til I’m gone
But my trouble lingers on
Please tell me the secret of a life less discontent
And draw me a map to find my way
Before we get out of here I gotta know you’re on my side
Brother please tell me what I wanna hear
Because I’ve gotta know for sure
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Buffalo Nights
04:04
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Was it a buffalo night or a basement show
Before I Saw the Light, after Chicago
With the lights down low and your heartbeat slow
Miles from Ohio, you sang
I’ll breathe the smoke of a thousand cigarettes
You’ll be working and I’m still working on those words
If you remember when I see you again
You can pick up where I started on that verse
Corner of Halsted and Grace, you were never there
I felt your trouble in my veins, it was in the air
You might not have known how we all held our breath
While you struggled for yours, and then you faced it all again
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These Hours
04:58
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These hours again
They weren’t meant for any men
Nothing to sing about when this winter will not end
In these hours again
No moon up above
No truth, no love
Darlin you were nothing more than a spectre I dreamed of
While there was no moon up above
I know where you lay
You are close, but you’re the furthest away
From the moment I found you you were never meant to stay
Now I know where you lay
Will I haunt your songs
Will you sing out about how you were wrong
While you still surround me
Do you even notice that I’m gone
Or will I haunt your songs
These hours again
I wake up every night for them
Not a soul to assure me that these wounds will mend
In these hours again
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Hold My Own
03:38
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I can hold my own for tonight
But there are so many more nights
Northern horizons, holier days
Don’t sway me like they used to
Fools and lonely men are one in the same
With their hearts out on their sleeves
Try as I might I am one of them
And I’m getting weaker every day
Now I’ve gotta get away
Put some miles between that house and me
Save myself from insanity
No I can’t do this alone
As the days get longer so does the blues
When the worst seems yet to come
And nothing seems so predictable as the setting of our sun
Is it really so unbelievable that you might have done all of this with me
God knows I tried, I tried and I tried to give you what you need
Now I’ve gotta get away
Put some miles between that house and me
Save myself from insanity
No I can’t do this alone
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Spectres
06:34
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Is there nothing I can do to comfort this room
Has a year and its spectres reached all our hearts
And if for no one else’s sake
Myself alone, I will retrace
To before we laid our heads on the tracks
Long nights, couch cushions lay
On the floor where I’d stay
First we’d weather the storm to get our drinks
And all hours were not safe from irreverent days
Over and over until the change
If you’re looking for me I’ll be gone for awhile
And this hole in my heart will be all that I become for awhile
When they say I sound like you
I always know that’s not true
But the thought of your voice coming through my throat
With all its rasp and honesty
All that I aspire to be
For a moment I forget you are not here
If you’re looking for me I’ll be gone for awhile
And this hole in my heart will be all that I become for awhile
I know I must let this go
But I will not let you go
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I sat down in the belly of the beast and I cried
All I need is someone to save me from myself, be on my side
While she haunts all the places we used to go I am a child
When there’s no choice but to forget and to avoid where she runs wild
Now it’s been awhile with no end in sight
As I walk on from the dark edge of this cell my head held low
I try to remember words a friend of mine had left about a glow
That spark’s not faded and the words still hold their depth through all this time
Still I would trade them all for one more late night drive with him
Then I might just be all right, we could drive all night before I close my eyes
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